The story of Pak Teh

Pak Teh was borned 5 years later than me, and he's the only son my mom ever had...

I used to feed him when he was small, give him a bath when he was smelly, pick up his laundry, clean his room, bring him to clinic, send him to grandpa's house etc etc..

When he was studying, I help to support him, out of my responsibility as a big sister... and when started work, I still help him, as he is starting his life.

And yet....now, I don't really know him anymore... he is so so so far away, eventhough he is just around the corner.... we talk and yet we don't really talk, we meet but we don't really meet...

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I think I have lost that connection I once have with Pak Teh. So Pak Teh, if you happens to read this, all I want to say is......

We all still love you the way you are... and please "come" back to reality...



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Love me, love me not?

Have you ever feel like you have been loved, but when it is convenient NOT to do so, you are not loved?

Have you ever feel like you are required, but when it is convenient NOT to do so, you are no longer required?

Have you ever feel like you belongs somewhere, but when it is convenient NOT to do so, you don't belongs there?

Life is all about a cycle... it keeps on rotating and the ending is when you leave this world in peace, to see Allah s.w.t.

Life is about making choices

Since I know the real meaning of life, life is always about making choices.... Choices are not easy to be made, you have to weigh all the factors evenly and then you choose the best option available.

Sometimes, no matter how careful you are, you still "skidded away" in taking the best choice of all available options. If this were to happen, what do you do? Learn from the mistake, stand up and walk tall again!

I know what I am talking about as I have just made the hardest choice ever..... What have I done? Let's just say that "some important priorities take precedent over what money can buy".

Pros & Cons of Driving - A wife cum working mother insight

DRIVING - something that can be a profession to some, taboo to others and dangerous hobby to many. What ever driving is to you, let me share my insight of the pros and cons of driving to me.....

Driving is a must when........

1. someone is sick, especially the loved ones (to go to hospital, to visit them etc)

2. hubby is not home and the gas is out!

3. we run out of supply at home (from rice right to diapers)!

4. to fetch someone (can be sister from university, or hubby at work, or friend at the bus stop, or mum at the airport) in need of transportation

5. attending to work obligation (like travel away from base, attending meetings etc)



Driving is not a skill you wish to have when........

1. "Oh, I don't know the way. You've been there, why don't you drive?".... this can typically come from friends, family, even hubby!

2. " You can go by yourself right?".... you know who always say this!

3. "Mom, can we get this ....., please? Please?".... the "sweet & driving me mad" angels


4. "I got something on. Can you replace me?".. from a superior most of the time

But what I like about driving is - it gives me the priviledge to be flexible with time and creates opportunity for me to excel in life and contributes to family & friends, work and the society.

So think about it - Do you want to DRIVE??

Last Entry for 2007

There are a lot of things that has happened in the year 2007. I am very sure many of us has experienced a lot of changes, adaptation, adjustment, tolerating, pushing, giving etc.

As for me, I started the year by commencing my MSc, then being put to take charge of a unit at work, followed by hubby decided to start his own business. Many additional family members also comes into the pictures - welcome to newborn Irfan, Amirah and Imran. There is a cousin's son was born sometimes this year, but I am yet to meet him! Also a warm welcome to Syed Akmal, my new brother in law.

So 2007 resolution - achieved? Yep, sure did... Alhamdulillah. The family health & development, a good job, acceptable grades, a good start for the business, I can't ask for more.

2008 resolution? A long list to state. Enough if I were to summarise it this way... I'll do my best and hope to become stronger and wiser in facing more challenges to come. May Allah be with me.

To my angels, thank you for always taking my pain and sorrow away, and bring me laughter and happiness. I will always be loving you three!

To my beloved Hubby - what else can I say?? May we always be together for each other.

To my family and friends (you know who you are), thank you, thank you & thank you...

A whole new world

A whole new world...... a world that I once dream to be in... and now I am in the dream world... yes, i like this world, i enjoy to be in this world and i know this world extract the best in me.....

BUT i miss blogging because of this world!

What I am trying to say is... i miss writing entries here... I owe a few people some tags - i think KuE, DNAS & Leilanie... friends, I apologise if ever I let you down... not intentionally done... will get it done!

And I think I need to explain to everyone why I was blocking my blog for sometimes now... I was disturbed with the fact that some personal information may be used by "the-cold-hearted-business-focus-people-in-this-world" against me and my family.

So I guess, I will have to change my direction of writing here... I will write for my friends... I will write about the world... I will write about religion maybe.. but no more about my family.... maybe just a touch base story, to keep "certain people abroad" posted about us..

To start with, this is a dedication to Rose, for the kind thought - I handed over her gift from CK and she gave me this in return:

Thank you Rose!

Decision Making

Making decision is never easy, especially when many things will be at stake if you mistakenly choose the wrong option! And now I am honestly in a deep deep thoughts of making a decision that could change my entire life... so in the midst of deciding, I realised that

D - defining what you want in life is very very important
E - experience is always the best way to learn
C - confide in people that you thrust ONLY
I - instinct is an internal guide for a human
S - silence is NOT an agreement
I - integrity is the key to lead a happy life now and here after
O - opportunity sometimes come only ONCE
N - no one is responsible for any decision or action that you take but YOURSELF

so all I am saying is.... whether I decide to DO or NOT TO DO, I just have to be prepared with the consequences of both outcomes!

Special Notes: Thank you to the FOC consultants who has helped me along the way in making my decision.... your kind understanding, willingness to listen, time spent... It is truly an honour to me to have been blessed with friends like you......

5 reasons why Kimi blog

Finally I have the time to answer to KuE’s tag… I cannot really recall why I blog but the truth is:

1. I started blog after being introduced to “blogging activity” by a dear friend Leilanie (thanks dear) – I began “blog hopping” to some of her favourite links and I feel “the writing spirit” in me blooms again… so that’s it!

2. And now I blog because there are many benefits out of it:- I can exchange ideas, learn something new everyday (from cooking, holiday right to politics), share some ups and down, learn from others experience (happy, sad or confusion) and also how to have fun!

3. I blog because I care to share.

4. I blog because I promise not to let myself being “caught up with life”, i.e just home-work-kids-work-home-kid and on and on…

5. I blog because my life is a story about myself, my family, my work, friends & special people who I care for n love...... so I want to make the most of it…

So yeah… those are my reasons……….

The return of innocence

Helloooooooo everyone.... I am back....!!

I am innocent, I did not meant to ignore my blog and all fellow bloggers... it's just that this and that and those and more are now on my plate and hence blogging become a "creativity corner as and when"... KuE, I know you've tagged me... have to get back to you on that... soon, promise!

Anyway, enjoy this teaser!

If Men got pregnant

1. Maternity leave would last two years... with full pay.

2. There would be a cure for stretch marks.

3. Natural childbirth would become obsolete.

4. Morning sickness would rank as the nation's #1 health problem.

5. All methods of birth control would be 100% effective.

6. Children would be kept in the hospital until toilet trained.

7. Men would be eager to talk about commitment.

8. They wouldn't think twins were so cute.

9. Sons would have to be home from dates by 10:00 PM

10. Briefcases would be used as diaper bags.

11. Paternity suits would be a fashion line of clothes.

12. They'd stay in bed during the entire pregnancy.

13. Restaurants would include ice cream and pickles as main entrees.

14. Women would rule the world!!

Let do a survey - who agree to this, and who does not??

I-have-no-gift PANIC!!!

I am panicking as the clock is ticking and I am yet to get Azhan a gift for his coming birthday on 28th Dec!! Try to get some "hints" from him as to what does he want.

And here is his reply..... "I already have:-
1. cars
2. house & wife & kids
3. laptop
4. golf set
5. shoes & shirt & watches & ties & pants & pens and etc etc etc...

I want something that I don't have yet..." ................... LIKE WHAT????

I can't think of anything..... and then it strike me like a big thunder....... he doesn't have a SON yet.... could that be the gift??? The thing is, no shop sell a "Muhamad xxxxx Bin Muhamad Azhan"!!

Hmmmmm... and then my creative mind started to work its way .... it's just my stress.... coz I am the only one sitting in the office and facing my laptop and the otrhers are on holiday till 3 Jan 2007.......................... Grrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, my intention of writing today is to wish everyone a happy new year 2007, may all your 2006 achievements become the motivator for 2007 to be better, the sorrow in 2006 become a lesson learn for 2007, be yourself and be happy!

To all the muslims - Have a wonderful Eidul Adha.