Just what I am looking for!!

I had a really really challenging day today.. It all started with my youngest daughter throw up at 1 am this morning and I have to clean up, change the bed sheet etc… then at 5 am Adilah (my eldest) work us up with rashes all over her body… and she was scratching like a monkey! Adlina, my second, refused to wake up for her school after a week school break.

Reach the University late today, I had to drive around looking for parking. Then there was an argument in the morning class… a friend confronted the lecturer, talking about how disorganized he has been…and so we had a very tensed class!

Then come lunch time and I am tired…and hungry and my phone rang… an auntie is asking for help, to book a flight for her son – as if I own MAS! But again, no problem, I tried to help. After asking clarification on when the date is, how many passengers etc, I’ve up a booking complete with arrangement for wheel chair as my cousin is injured after an accident.

And guess what? They gave me wrong info… they want a flight this evening!! What do I get – “bla bla bla… can you get the booking changed?”… and that is when my phone give me the “BATTERY WEAK SIGNAL”… so I had no choice but to rush the conversation – asking them instead to make the changes… and then pop… my phone just died…

I was looking for phone booth and found one, and managed to call them back, and then I run out of coins, and no shop is selling phone cards anymore… I just had it… I knew my auntie is going to blow off any time soon… I had my Zohor prayer, and I tried to look for any friends who will lend me a phone… Kak Sha, you’re a life saver!

By the way, using Kak Sha’s phone, I managed to get through… but my auntie as expected, refused to talk to me. My injured cousin was on the line. I explain my self to him, that I was in uni etc etc… but NAHHHH of course it does not interest them… as I have FAILED TO ASSIST them in their opinion…

What else can I do? How should I feel or react? What about my time wasted… no studying, no library visit, gone all my plan for 3 hours gap between my lectures… I am just so frustrated, I had to write this out… my grammer may not be right.. I just don’t care. I know somehow my mom will get this “cold treatment” as well from her sister becaused I HAVED FAILED this time…. And gone all my good deeds all this while… I will just be remembered as “THAT COUSIN WHO WORK FOR AN AIRLINE WHO CANNOT EVEN ASSIT US WHEN WE NEED HELP”…

The truth is… I tried, honest to GOD… I know 7 habits says, “work with your circle of influence”… I tried and hence my conscience should be free but I still feel bad…WHY? WHY?

Kimi... calm down, it's now 2.30 pm and 2nd lecture is about to start now… focus focus focus!